Dear No One,

These past few days I've had problems falling asleep at night.
Yesterday, I stayed up until 4 in the morning listening to sad songs.
Things are so different now.
I used to have the love songs on nonstop repeat, but now I skip every single one.

I used to "aw" at cute couples in the mall. But now when I see people who look so utterly in love with each other, I get all angry and sad and sick to my stomach. I feel suffocated and want to run away, but I can't. It's a horrible feeling and I feel like such an awful human being for thinking this way.

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Dear No One,

I miss him.

I miss our late night conversations. I miss my hand in his and how comfortable and relieved he made me feel.
I miss talking to him. How I wish we could go back to talking like we used to. I don't want him to become a stranger again.

I know it was for the best, but now everything feels so strange.
I know I should move on, but now I'm lonely and sad, and miss the way things were before.

I'm alone once again and I only have myself to blame.