Day 7

Basically did nothing the whole day again... (was actually supposed to go for my learner's test but my mom forgot & I didn't bother to bring it up since I didn't really study hehe I'm terrible) Same old stuff - played TL in the morning. ME & SOUSUKE GOT MARRIED IN THE GAME. The proposal part was super nerve-wracking though (my mii kept thinking of mosquitoes for some reason while watching the fireworks like wow pay attention to your man) and Makoto kept trying to get with the various girls of TL (all except Haru is this even real life). And also I made Mako and Haru sing a ballad with tweaked lyrics hehe. Highlight of TL for me today....(I know, I'm lame).
Made omelettes again for lunch with toast, ate more jello, squirmed out of mowing the lawn.. yeahh pretty average stuff.
Starting to neglect Pokemon though after defeating all the gym leaders... kinda don't wanna face off against the Elite Four. I remember last time I prepped for hours before actually battling them. I want to battle other people via internet but then I look at their play times and they're all 100 hours and higher... one guy had like 999 hours of play time I'm not even joking... (first of all how??? & second of all WHY??)
Mom kinda went on/off rage mode throughout the day. Tiring just keeping up with her moods like eghghhh...

Going for a haircut tomorrow. Never been there before but heard the place has a dog uwu and the hair stylist don't let you leave till they perfect your hair. Got some high expectations for tomorrow to be honest... maybe too high.... it's pretty hard to do justice to this (lol).
Fingers crossed.

Day 5 & 6

WHOOPS totally forgot to post yesterday... probably too caught up with the first Free!ES episode and making jello. Yeah, that was basically what went down yesterday. Cheated and gave in to watching the episode almost right after it aired before my friends came over to watch it after lunch...kinda pretended I'd never watched it before when they did come over. Sorryyyy guys I hope you don't see this...
It was excellent btw (esp. the opening I listened it 180 times in the past 2 days.. counter on listenonrepeat... yeah, I'm lame...) with all the angsty hints from the opening & the shenanigans in the ending theme. I am in awe still... Hopefully the foreshadowed events actually happen somewhere in the season.
Sousuke is hot as hell in the actual episode as in the trailer heheh.. definitely not disappointed with that ^_^
It was really cute & I think rinharu will be the main focus for the beginning episodes just as it was for season one.. not that I'm complaining. I will have faith in my ship and makoharu shall sail for the middle episodes as it did in season one (hopefully). AND I'M STILL CHOKED WITH THE CHERRY BLOSSOM PETAL SEPARATION THING IN THE POOL. THAT IS NOT OKAY. OH HOW I FEAR FOR MY BOYS ;_; but we are guaranteed a happy ending I suppose... (KyoAni knows better than that... maybe)

Anyways, my sister & I made some jello that for the picnic I was going to have at a friends house today. Made Fruit Fiesta and orange AND THE ORANGE WAS FUCKING NASTY AS HELL OK THE BOX TELLS LIES IT SMELLED DISGUSTING WHEN WE WERE MAKING IT. I CAN STILL FEEL THE SCENT LINGERING IN MY NOSTRILS BLOODY HELL IT WAS AWFUL. but flavour wise they were both ok. The orange does have this pungent/asian zing to it but after a while you just get used to it I guess.

As for today, went to pick up report cards before noon (better than waking up at 8 like my sis will tmrw haha suck it) and signed like 1000 yearbooks =.=" I've just given up on finding people to sign. Those whose comments I actually do care about I'll keep in touch with in the future anyways sooo I don't find it that big of a deal like I did the last few years (I literally had like 5 people sign mine before I was all "nope, screw this I'm heading home").

Afterwards, we went to friends house and brought our food things and basically watched Free ES/yaoi/ouran whilst eating food in my tiny jello bowls (IDK why no one bothered to eat in proper plates but oh well). Some of my friends were looking away & seemed deeply disturbed with the yaoi at some parts while me & another friend were just hell yea the whole time. Maybe I'm just too much of a perv......
Did basically nothing the rest of the night. Didn't play pokemon or anything.. just tumblred and listened to the ES opening a "few" more times... HAHA i'm a sad human being.....
I want mac and cheese ....

Day 3 & 4

Forgot to post one yesterday & was kinda afraid to after my mom entered rage mode at like 12AM that day so yeahh. Nothing special happened though; spent like 9 hours playing PX & idk how many playing TL in the morning. FINALLY got 2 of the miis to date: mine and Sousuke. Kinda random and a lil disappointing cuz I was planning to set Sou up with Rin  & mine with an OC but decided to roll with it since I had a Free! ES dream where I had a thing with Sousuke the night before (really hope ES doesn't turn out like I dreamt cuz heck I would drop that show in a second). Ate more chips probably (don't really remember), had some weird arm pains after drinking lemonade and frankly too lazy to check it out.

Today I actually woke up pretty early (9 ish maybe?) and didn't want to be the first to get up so I just lay there for a few hours. Mom was still in semi-rage mode and thought I was too obsessed with my games and didn't let me play (but I didn't let that stop me lol i'm a terrible child). "Cleaned" my room for a couple hours then made cheese omelettes and waffles for lunch (sis made pancakes) then drew a bit on my tablet (forgot I neglected it for maybe a week or so sorryyy) and got to play PX later. Caught the legendary!! Made the cutest outfit for my character :D (yeess i fuss over the details) Had hamburgers for dinner & currently anticipating the arrival of Free!ES tomorrow. Hope it loads on animeseason x.x My friends are supposed to come watch it with me but I don't know if they even finished the first one.. If she criticizes/complains about the lack of detailed water animation/excessive fanservice mid-episode I will seriously flip .____."
Seriously though, don't ruin it for us....
Yeah this is the end I guess.
Sousuke is beautiful. That is all I have to say.

Also, I am very tempted to jump straight to watching the first episode after it airs with subs (it says about 8:00 PST so way before they come over). Should I do it????? DECISIONSSS DECISIONS.

Day 2

So I had to wake up at about 10-ish to catch the bus and ended up getting to the station almost 20 minutes earlier than everyone else =__= Met up with everyone at around 11:15 and went downtown to eat lunch to use up our free grad passes. Anyway, we got sidetracked on the way there and managed to lose one of us at London Drugs, then almost got convinced to buy some pricey gourmet chocolate (which was really good btw). Got to the restaurant really hungry & decided to order lobster for lunch with seafood poutine as a side. Had issues cracking the lobster & made a mess ): Ate some oyster at the end & the lunch was $$

Then we planned to go to Richmond Centre but ended up heading to London Drugs (again) and ended up buying chocolate.. (there's no escape from it, is there?) Finally we got there and saw a dead rat on the sidewalk and a (dead?) pigeon which my friend said was actually sleeping (?). Shopped a bit, bought a loose floral tank for $19 (I know, but I couldn't help myself it was so cute). At least I went home with something, though. Met some friends on the way home & yeah. Long day. Feet were tired. Wanted to reunite with my Pokemon ;__; Played TL & Pokemon at home & defeated 2 gym leaders (this game takes longer than expected) and still failed in making MakoHaru canon in TL (GDI MAKO STOP HITTING ON MY MII). Wonder if they'll ever end up together...

Oh!!! I also got requested for a summer job interview at the only place I applied at. Isn't that weird?? (and pretty lucky if you ask me) Interview's coming up soon... still don't know what can be considered "business casual"... still don't know where the heck the place is... STILL NEED TO STUDY FOR DRIVERS.

...tough not so tough life....

Day 1

Decided to do this summer journal/diary thing for kicks because I have free time and why the heck not?
Didn't do much these past few days; kinda felt jetlagged after prom from my lack of sleep... Still regret drinking all that coke..

Ughghh.. honestly.. I don't really remember much after prom.. just that we played Cards Against Humanity and marathoned Free for like 6 hours. I successfully converted at least 2 people that night, then couldn't fall asleep till 1pm the next day. Yeah, tough life.
The next few days were like purgatory.. the line between school and summer so it felt really strange. Don't know when or if report cards will get mailed home and I honestly don't really care. Worried most about the scholarship money though. The principal literally took my forms through his office window and shut it. .___."
If they don't send it by the time I have to pay uni fees I'll be pretty pissed.

Also!! Went to buy games for my new 3DS that my mom bought!! The model is the limited edition silver year of Luigi one. Pretty neat even though I barely play Mario...
Went to Best Buy to get the games & exchanged glances with this cute store guy. Kinda looking to get more games so there's no doubt I'll be going back there soon (; Bought Tomodachi Life cuz I heard it was good & Pokemon X. TL was okay.. not worth the hype but I'm still trying to get Makoto and Haru together, which would be pretty easy if Mako wasn't so obsessed with my character =___=" Give it a rest already, sheesh...

As for Pokemon X... there's no way to get bored of Pokemon. Nothing beats it. Nothing. All time best!! Chose the frog starter (forgot name) since the final evolution seemed pretty cool (esp. with the tongue scarf). My brother willingly traded me an Eevee and some OP level 50-something Pokemon near the beginning, which would be cool if they listened to me... >_<

Went to a birthday dinner today. Held some babies, petted some dogs... cool stuff. Played Pokemon after dinner and all the kids crowded around to watch. Felt like my new game gained me celebrity status, haha. Going out tomorrow to use up my free bus pass from grad. Someone gave me another one during prom (idk why) but probably won't be using them since they expire in 2 days.

Ehh that's about it I guess. Idk how to end journal entries.

the boy on the bus.

Sitting two rows ahead and one seat to the right,
he rhythmically drums his fingers on a pile of notebooks
almost the same way you played me Chopin Nocturne Op. 9 No. 2.
The time your ears burned and you kept apologizing for messing up,
when I was so utterly captivated I'd hardly noticed.


The way he delicately folds his ticket in half until it can't fold anymore
reminds me of how you folded each one differently,
how you kept them in a jar, and how I fell in love with the way
you smiled and called them souvenirs from your adventures.


His fingers scratch the back of his neck near the exact way you did,
the times we first talked and you'd get so nervous
your face turned the loveliest shade of red
and we'd sit in unusually comfortable silence
whenever you ran out of things to say.


But once I step onto pavement and turn to look,
I'm greeted by the window's glare,
then staring into ongoing traffic
with a thousand questions running through my head,
and a “hi” on the edge of my tongue
that didn't have the opportunity to escape my lips.



Simply left standing,
wondering if it was really you
or if it was just
another boy on the bus.

Dear No One,

These past few days I've had problems falling asleep at night.
Yesterday, I stayed up until 4 in the morning listening to sad songs.
Things are so different now.
I used to have the love songs on nonstop repeat, but now I skip every single one.

I used to "aw" at cute couples in the mall. But now when I see people who look so utterly in love with each other, I get all angry and sad and sick to my stomach. I feel suffocated and want to run away, but I can't. It's a horrible feeling and I feel like such an awful human being for thinking this way.

-

Dear No One,

I miss him.

I miss our late night conversations. I miss my hand in his and how comfortable and relieved he made me feel.
I miss talking to him. How I wish we could go back to talking like we used to. I don't want him to become a stranger again.

I know it was for the best, but now everything feels so strange.
I know I should move on, but now I'm lonely and sad, and miss the way things were before.

I'm alone once again and I only have myself to blame.